Saturday, July 31, 2010

No motivation or energy

I have no energy or motivation to do anything today. I have been just laying around either reading or listening to music. I need to run errands but I just don't feel up to it. I am thinking if I get in the shower it might rejuvenate me and make me want to get out of the house into the blaring heat......or not.

Yesterday I spent a wonderful day with my mother. She had a free coupon for lunch at The Hard Rock Casino. She asked me if I wanted to go to the sit down restaurant or the buffet. Well, I picked the buffet like a dumba**. I haven't been there in a long time. I know I can make good choices but not at this buffet. I started off with a salad but they didn't have any low fat dressings. I could have put oil and vinegar but I was not in the mood. I used a small amount of the full fat ranch. Oh well! I even had some of my favorite: grilled flank steak. I kept away from all the fried foods and heavy cheese laden Italian dishes. When I got home I didn't even want to see how many calories I ate so I didn't log them in. However, I did today. I pretty much ate my days worth of calories in one meal. However it wasn't my only meal of the day.

I went to happy hour last night also. I drank 3 large beers but made sure I drank water in between. I ate chips and salsa. It was a ridiculous eating day. On top of it all I didn't do one lick of exercise. I told myself I would make sure I made up for it today. Not doing a good job of that sitting on the sofa. *sigh*

Okay the positives. When I decided to meet my friends for happy hour I put on a pair of jeans I couldn't even button a year ago. They fit perfectly. I saw people at HH that hadn't seen in a few weeks and some a few months. They all noticed the weight loss so I was happy. That should have been the motivator to get my butt in gear today. lol

I am not going to make this a total waste of a weekend when it comes to my healthy life style. I will recover with my food for today and hopefully will get my exercise mojo back tomorrow. Right now my body is screaming for a nap. It must be so tired from sitting around all day. lol

Lists always help me. I have to make a to do list and get it done. If I make a list I always feel more accomplished and motivated to complete it. Yes...that's the ticket....make a list. I am off to get my list going: 1) Take a nap. 2)...zzzzzz......

Blog *snore* out!

Friday, July 30, 2010

TGIF

Oh this is the best Friday so far this summer! Yep! Yesterday was the last day of summer school. Yippee!!! What a relief. It was a challenging summer to say the least. I am surprised I didn't gain weight from all the aggravation.

This has been a very lazy week for me. I haven't exercised since Tuesday. I have eaten under my calories and I switched my dinners to light meals. But I have lacked all motivation to do anything strenuous. I feel guilty about it too. Hopefully I will find some motivation today to get in a walk or something. I know I will be walking around the casino with my mother so that will be good. That is a big place. It won't be a big calorie burning walk but still walking.

The scale was okay today but I am not too disappointed. It said I am a pound up but I am so bloated right now (women you know what I am talking about....well now the men do too). By next week it should be hasta la bye bye. lol I am still judging by how my clothes fit and not by how the scales rate me. Yesterday was another kudos clothes day. Snug jeans in the past are now loose fitting.

I am going to keep myself under control this weekend and make sure I stay within my limitations of eating. I know I make good decision and I am more conscience about what I eat. Baby steps are better than no steps. :)

Have a great Friday!

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Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Hump Day

Yesterday was supposed to be my cardio day....well at least in my head but not required from Sparkpeople. I tried to get up early......I really did. However, again my body was not having it. I really have to put the book down and not read until the wee hours morning. :) I didn't get up early enough to walk but I did get up early enough to color my hair (yes I have gray hair!), mop the kitchen floor, make breakfast and cook lunch. So I still had a very productive morning.

I wore these really cute jean capris yesterday. I found them a few months ago in the back of my closet and have been wearing them since. They have a double button so when I would wear them they would cut into my belly, especially if I sat for long periods of time. So if I didn't sit much then it didn't bother me. While I was getting ready to cook dinner last night (after sitting on the sofa and reading for a while.....yes more reading) it dawned on me the buttons didn't cut in my belly like it usually did. Yippee a positive effect of the weight loss! Woo Hoo!!!!

As I was cooking dinner I was feeling guilty that I hadn't done any cardio (still didn't look at my sparkpeople fitness to know I didn't need to do cardio). Then I remembered what my sister-in-law suggested I do when I can't get out and walk.......walk in place! So, that is exactly what I did. I walked in place the whole time I prepared dinner and while it cooked. I walked in place for 30 minutes. Then I didn't feel so guilty any more when I ate my dinner at 8:30 pm.

This morning I got up to go walking but realized I had a few other things I had to get done so I see some walking in place in my future. While looking for clothes yesterday I found a skirt in a drawer. A skirt I have never been able to wear since it was too tight. Tight like I felt like a sausage stuffed in a denim casing. I have had it almost a year and it has been in my drawer. So, I tried it on and you know what.......it almost fits. It's a little tight (not sausage tight) but I could wear it if I wanted to. I will wait until it fits properly. Another positive effect!

So I got two kudos in two days. I love this feeling! It is the small accomplishments!

Happy Hump Day!

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Monday, July 26, 2010

Monday Monday Monday

Oh my does my body ache all over!!! I don't know what I was thinking agreeing to work a double yesterday. I am getting too old for this stuff. Today is my cardio day and I usually get up early and do it in the morning. Not today. My body was not having it. It shut down at 10 o'clock last night and I had to force it to turn back on at 7:30 this morning. I guess I needed the rest and then some but I have places to go, people to see and things to do today.

Even though I worked a double yesterday I did get a 30 minute walk in. It was slow in the morning so I walked around the clubhouse for 30-35 minutes. Just doing laps around the whole place. The people playing looking ni the windows must have thought I was crazy. That would be a lot of players since the whole clubhouse is windows. lol

This is my last week of summer school and then I have two weeks off before real school starts again. I just need to keep the momentum going once I am out of school. However, no matter what I sure can use the rest. *sigh* This has been a trying summer. The money has been nice though. :)

I will try to get some cardio in later today but I doubt I will. I hate to set myself up for failure but I am just not feeling it today. My body is not working at 100%. Who knows because I surprise myself all the time. Even after a 13 hour day yesterday I still got on the floor and did my crunches, leg curls and push ups. I may get it done after all (still doubt it though).

So here is to a good Monday on the eating front since I may not get all my exercise in for today.

Happy Monday!

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Sunday, July 25, 2010

Weekend Sabotage

I do so well during the week days. I eat right. I exercise. I do all the right things....at least I try to do all the right things. Then comes the weekend and....poof....I sabotage myself.

Friday I had a big plan of being a good. I knew I was cooking a dinner that was not going to be low in calories nor fat. So, I prepared myself. I walked in the morning while I did my laundry. I did my toning exercises. I even did the challenge that comes to me daily from the diet group I am apart of. I ate a light breakfast/lunch.

Well, I decided to head to Wal Mart to get a few items I needed. I was craving a frozen coffee. So, I remembered I had a free coupon for a Frappe from McDonalds. I figured "why not? It's frozen coffee how bad can it be???" It can be VERY bad when what makes it frozen is ice cream!!!! I had a medium Frappe and it was 560 calories. I was thinking it was going to be like a frappacino and I can order it with skim milk. Nope! So with my light breakfast/lunch, snack and this drink I used up a good portion of my daily calories. So that limited me on my dinner. It wasn't that I was going to eat a big meal but I wanted to enjoy it.....not feel guilty.

I have another coupon for a Frappe if anyone wants it because I sure as heck am not going to use it!

Saturday I felt like I had a pretty good day. I slept in some and then I worked in the afternoon at the golf course. I was busy and was running around like a crazy woman. If you know me, then you know I always wear a pedometer. I wear it religously (even with dresses). I especially like to wear it at work to see how many steps I take during a regular day. Since yesterday was extraordinarily busy day I knew I was walking a bunch of steps. I looked at my pedometer near the end of the day and it calulated 300 more steps than when I left my house that afternoon. I know that was a bunch of bull. I do that just walking from my car into the building. I was not a happy camper because I upload my steps to a website and it gives me points. The more steps I walk the more points I earn. Oh well!

I had dinner with my friend Debi last night. She cooked a great meal of tilapia, asparagus, noodles and salad. We drank some wine and talked about life. It was a good dinner. Some of it very healthy and some of it not. However, it was worth it for the company!

Today I am working a double at the golf course. I have been here a little over an hour and have walked almost 1000 steps. Not sure what the deal was yesterday but I will make up for it today. :) I am hoping to get back on track with my eating. Just making a conscience effort and knowing the mistakes is a good start. The changes they keep coming and it will make a big difference in the long run!

Happy Sunday!

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Friday, July 23, 2010

I know I am not supposed to do it....

.....but I weighed myself. I have actually waited a week before doing so.Actually, my nutrition website wants me to weigh myself weekly. However, I was happy when I got on the scale. Not too bad for a week. I also measured myself. Stupid me didn't do it from the very beginning because I know the numbers on the measurements would have gone down. Well, I will use today's measurements as my baseline. I will continue to work on making them smaller.

I have this ritual when I do my laundry. While my clothes are in the washer I walk the complex. Then when I am done walking I put my clothes in the dryer and go about my business. It is a good habit to get into. Too bad I am not always consistent with this habit. :)

I woke this morning with good intentions of getting a lot done. So far I have been doing quite well. It is noon and I have washed 3 loads of laundry, walked 1.5 miles, did some toning exercises and started dinner for tonight. Things I have left to do it vacuuming, changing my sheets, shower, grocery shopping and getting my eyebrows waxed. I think I have plenty of time to get it all done. I think I my squeeze a nap in there somewhere.

I hope everyone is having a productive day as well! Since I am working all weekend, I think I should be okay eating wise since I will be extremely busy and doing a lot of moving around. However, tomorrow maybe a no go if the weather is bad.....for some reason people don't like the play golf in storms. lol

Have a great day!

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Thursday, July 22, 2010

Don't under estimate some exercises

With my new nutrition website it has me on a exercise schedule, which I mentioned the other night. It had me do crunches, crunches with a twist, push-ups, etc. Well it had me do this one exercise where I lay on the floor face down, put my hands under my hips then lift my feet towards my butt and hold for a two count. I was trying to figure out what this exercise was for. I did it with ease and was like what the heck is this supposed to do to me? Well, I found out a couple of days later when my butt was killing me. So, I will make sure I won't doubt another exercise again. lol

I am feeling really good. I am not being as diligent writing every morsel of food that passes through my lips but I make sure I keep track and not over eat. My clothes are fitting a lot looser. I need to get back to work soon so I can make some money to buy some new clothes that fit. :)

Tonight I cooked a healthy dinner. It was 667 calories. It would have been less if I didn't put so much pasta in the dish. I cooked 4 oz of penne. In a bowl I mixed 1 tbsp of Smart Balance butter spread, 1/4 cup part skim milk ricotta, garlic salt and Mrs. Dash tomato basil. I cut a tomato in half then squeezed out all the seeds and then cut it into bite sized pieces. I also cooked a bag of Green Giant Steamers broccoli. I drained the pasta then put it back in the pot with the ricotta cheese mixture, tomatoes and broccoli. I mixed it in the warm pot so the ricotta would be creamy. It was so good. It would have been 100 calories less if I had used 3 oz of pasta.

My goal is to make sure I start logging every bit of food I eat. I eat a Starburst and forget to log it. In the beginning if I chewed a piece of gum I would log it in. So, I need to get back on track and log all my food. Because those small bites add up to some serious calories. That is my issue and why I gained weight.....not because I eat bad food....I just eat too much food period!!!

I have a busy weekend ahead. Tomorrow will be laundry day and hopefully some pool time. Then it is working all weekend. Gotta save that money for my new wardrobe!!!

Blog out!

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

$2 Tuesday

I slept in today. I really wanted to walk every day this week but I kind of stayed up too late and needed to get some extra sleep. So, I am writing this blog then heading to bed so I can make sure I get up in the morning to hit th pavement.

Eating was not so bad. I tried to eat as healthy as possible.....at least during the day. Healthy breakfast of an egg white and ham sandwich. Healthy lunch of salad and fruit. Then I had plans to meet Todd the Texter (that's my nickname for him since that is all he likes to do is text.....we've been texting for a couple of months now). We were meeting for drinks at Splitsville. They have a great happy hour....at least they used to have one. It still isn't too bad...half price martini's ($4.50) and buckets of beer ($10 for 5 domestics).

They also are running a Two dollar Tuesday deal. I took them up on their $2 deal and drank Finlandia vodka with club soda and a splash of diet coke. I have been trying not to drink alcohol out in bars since you don't know how much alcohol you are getting in each drink. A normal pour should be 1.5 ounces however when a bartender free pours you don't know if they are overpouring. At least if I have a beer I know exactly how many calories I am getting so I can log it in. Today, beer was not calling my name.

I was hungry while we were there and before I had my first drink, I decided the lowest in fat/calorie would be sushi. That would counter any alochol I drank and not add too many calories. Well, after the first drink and the buzz kicked in.....to hell with counting calories......give me pizza. I ordered a margharita pizza (sp?) and ate 1/3 of the pie. I could have ate more.....oh yeah I sure could have. I boxed up the rest for lunch for tomorrow. Trust me when I say that pizza was calling my name from the styrofoam box all the way home. It wanted me to eat another piece but I said no way pizza you are staying in the box! (win one for me!)

Here is the kicker....at Channelside they have one of the best chocolatiers. They have an awesome toffee covered apple to die for!!! I had to stop in and get me a nibble of chocolate. Thankfully they didn't have that apple in stock. I am not sure I would have bought it any way. I did get a dark chocolate covered pretzel and a dark chocolate toffee bar (isn't dark chocolate supposed to be better for you....right....it's better). Luckily the dark chocolte was high in cocoa so it did not taste very good on the pretzel so I only ate a bite. Since that pretzel didn't taste good I wanted a small milk shake from Sonic. Oh yeah, I nice vanilla milkshake would hit the spot for my sweet tooth. I pulled up to the drive thru....looked at the menu.....study all the different ice cream items to choose from.....the girl asked me if she could help me.....I said "no thank you!" and drove off (win antoher one for me).

When I got home I did eat just a small piece of the toffee (which was sooooooo much better than the pretzel). I make mistakes but I don't keep making them.

I still kept within my limits of calories so I didn't do too bad. Tomorrow I am waking to walk so I guess it is time for bed.

Blog Out!

Monday, July 19, 2010

Monday Monday Monday

Well, I started the day off with a nice walk. I had to literally force myself out of bed but I got up and did it. I was pounding the pavement at 6:30 am. I have to continue with it on a daily basis. On my new nutrition website (not diet website) it has selected some toning exercises for me so I will do those before I go to bed. *sigh*

I started the day mentally telling myself I need to eat very well today since I was going to have a very hearty dinner. I had a ribeye defrosted since yesterday so I had to cook it....I did! I love to grill a good steak. I marinated it all day in some soy sauce, grilling spices and garlic. It was very good. I never realized that a steak that weighed just a little under 1 lb with a bone yields about 6 ounces of edible meat. I know this because I weighed every piece of meat I cut off the bone. Again I made my awesome mashed cauliflower. Yummy! A great substitute for mashed potatoes. Well, I mentally told myself to eat light and healthy all day....but did I? No, not really. I made a big sandwich with bread from Publix (which was given to me by neighbor yesterday). Okay well that really wasn't that bad.....but I should have had a salad.

Tonight before going to bed I need to clean my kitchen and do the exercises Sparkpeople.com has alloted me for the day. I can do it. I know I can.

I have set me a small goal.....I need to lose a minimum of 8 pounds before I go back to school on 8/14. That is 4 weeks away. So if I continue to walk and eat right the way I have been then I think that goal is achievable.

Tuesday......here I come!

Blog out!

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Ahhhh the weekend

Well, I weighed in on Friday. I have shed 4 more pounds for a total of 27. Not too bad since January. I was hoping the number would be higher but a loss is a loss is a loss. I won't worry about how big the number is as long as the weight goes down.

I tried to keep on track over the weekend but it is hard. I read an article on Sparkpeople.com that states most people sabotage themselves on the weekends. I think the article was talking to me specifically. I have a habit of doing that. I tried not to the past few weekends but this weekend....I kind of over did it just a little. I ate a little too much and I drank a little too much. It's all good because I will get back on it.

The other day I saw a co-worker (actually now an ex-coworker) from my school job. The next day he texted me to ask me a question. I decided to ask him, since it has been a few weeks since he saw me, if he saw a difference in me....if he noticed I had lost weight. He said "hmmm....now that you mention it...I did notice and you are looking good." I texted him back "You're just saying that just because I asked." D'oh.....hello......I did ask. Oh well, I got a positive response. lol

Tonight I went to meet my neighbors for dinner. As I was sitting there, one of the men came up to me and said, "you are losing weight" I told him I was trying and he said "whatever you are doing keep it up, you are looking good." So I guess it is working.

If you are interested in what I am doing, I am just counting my calories as I've stated before. I am using the website sparkpeople.com. I changed over from caloriecount.com. I like my new website because it is easier to use and I believe a little easier to navigate. It also has a lot more to offer.

Well, tomorrow is Monday and it is a start of a new week and a new journey.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Getting ready for the weekend

I skipped yesterday writing my blog. I have been working some extra hours after teaching summer school to help schedule students for next year so I have been a little tired. Today is my Friday so I get a three day weekend.....well I would if I didn't have to work at the golf course. I hate being poor! lol

I am sitting here listening to the storm outside. The thunder is so loud it is vibrating my windows. I am waiting for one of them fall out of the wall.

Well, tomorrow is it. I weigh in at 8:45 am at the doctor's office and I hope the scale is nice to me. I am going to wear the same sun dress I wore last time so I make sure I get an accurate reading. While there I will get my blood pressure checked. I am also going to ask the nurse to check my blood sugar. Keep your fingers crossed the news is REALLY good.

I have been working my ass off to make the scale give me good news. Yesterday morning I got up early and walked. I like walking in the morning as it gives me more energy for the day. For dinner last night I tried my hand at homemade pizza and it didn't work out so well. I think I cooked it too long or something. It was not very tasty as I thought it would be as I made it. Maybe some high fat foods are not good as low fat foods. lol

Today I decided to try something a little different in my exercise regime. So, I dusted off an aeorbic DVD I haven't used in a long time. I put it in the DVD player and went to aerobicing. Now I know why it was sitting there all dusty. That woman is crazy. All she does is leg exercises. My thighs are killing me. Walking with quivering legs is not fun. Thank goodness I didn't have to chase down an AWOL kid. Lunge and squat this beyotch! I will not use that stupid DVD again......or at least not for another dusty day. Then she kept forgetting the fact that humans have two arms. It was always using the right arm.....reach with your right.....curl with your right.....she wasn't a parapalegic as far as I could see. Maybe just a little off balanced.

Except for the slight quivering, so far my legs are getting me around but we'll see how it goes tomorrow. :)

Wish me luck!!!!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Finally.....

Yesterday I got up early so I could walk and build my energy for the day (and hopefully not kill a disrespectful turd at work). I was successful! No one was injured or died yesterday.....at least not by my hand. I walked 1.5 miles. I ate a healthy breakfast, lunch and dinner. I was moving around at work. I came home and did my laundry. Up and down the stairs several times.....well I used the elevator to get my dirty and clean clothes back and forth. But in between I used the stairs.

Let me tell the naysayers about cauliflower. Mashed cauliflower rocks! When you add a little salt, pepper, low fat butter, low fat sour cream and low fat cheese they taste like mashed potatoes. They are low fat, low carb and healthy. Make shepherds pie with them....OMG!!! Yummy!

So, I have been getting on my scale every day....weighing myself to see if there is any change. I know this is a bad idea. I know that I should only weigh myself once a week if at all. But I have been working so hard on this that I wanted to see the results. Unfortunately no results. None! Nada! Nil! :( At least not on the scale.....my clothes, however, is a different story. I wore some capris today that used to be a lot tighter. Actually when I put them on they were tight in the areas where they normally are after wearing them all day. So, that is a good sign. I love those signs......but I need to see the signs on the scale. Also, my sister and I aren't comparing the percentage of how loose are clothes fit. So, I need to see the signs in the scale!!!

I tell myself every day to stay off the scale but every day it ends up on my bathroom floot 'weighting' for me get on. Who am I to disappoint? If I don't give it what it wants it may never give me what I want....a smaller number!!!! Of course, the official weigh in comes when I go to the doctor on Friday morning.

*sigh* I will wait until the nurse gives me the official results.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Sunday was not a fun day!

So, yesterday was not a bad eating day for me. I kept it around 1900 calories but was lazy before I went to work and when I came home. I did keep active as possible but it was too hot in the clubhouse.

It is so hard to lose weight when you work around food a few days a week. I get tired of eating the same foods when I am at the golf course but when you get bored what are you supposed to do? I decided to eat pretzels (1.5 oz) and dip it in peanut butter (1 oz). Healthy, right? It was a 331 calorie snack, however it was filling and yummy. Since I didn't eat breakfast I could afford to eat few extra calories. I also pushed a vacuum around the big clubhouse. This should be an easy task but the vacuum is horrible and you have to vacuum over everything TWICE. So, does that mean I can put that in as double the activity???

Here is a sandwich I discovered that is fillig and good. I grilled a turkey and cheese sandwich on whole wheat bread (350 calories). I grilled it using Pam. made a salade with cucumber (I scooped out the seeds with a spoon), tomato, avacado, garlic salt, Mrs. Dash tomato basil and a few dashes of red wine vinegar. After the sandwich was done, I put the salad on top of my sandwich and ate it with a fork and knife. It was so yummy. The salad was 131 calories. Not a bad lunch. :)

However, I found out I could cut 100 caloires from that sandwich if I had made a better choice of bread. Arnold Dutch Whole Wheat bread is 100 calories a slice but Nature's Own 100% Whole Wheat is 50 calories. What the heck was I thinking? I checked the label for fiber but not the calories.

So, no exercise and almost a maximum of my caloric intake. It was a Sunday so I guess I deserved a break from the normal eating regimen. I have learned I could eat a lot more food if I made healthier choices. Let me tell you I am not a sweets eater but damn Publix had M&Ms on sale for BOGO and it was a chocolate time in my life. So I bought them.....why Publix....why????? Oh and I am not talking about the small individual bags.....I am talking the "new larger size" bag! I ate the first bag within the first week. The second bag is still in my refridgerator half full. I tell you the chocolate lasts me a lot longer than potato chips would. I would have eaten the first bag the first night.....the family size bag!!!

Today is going to be a lot better......:)

Sunday, July 11, 2010

The start

Well it all started a few weeks ago (father's day I believe) when my sister challenged me to beat her in losing weight. We set a date for September 30ish when we go on a cruise. Who ever lost the lowest percentage of weight would have to clean the other sister's house. Well, I barely like to clean my own house, I sure don't want to clean a house that has a teenage boy or two in it.

So, I had to do a lot of thinking about it and if I wanted to step up to the challenge. I know I needed to and I know I should. I have been trying to lose weight and have been slowing taking it off for a while now. My last weigh in at my doctor had me down 5 pounds which made 23 since the beginning of the year. So, I decided I was in.

I didn't want to make this a diet. I wanted to make this a life style change....a journey for me. So, I am changing the route to my journey in life to be healthier. I don't like giving up anything so I am making changings. I believe in a philosphy of it's not what you eat....it how much of it you eat that counts. Everything is okay in moderation. So, I dusted off my measuring cups, my scale, measuring spoons and all that good stuff. You really don't know how much something is until you really measure it. You'd be surprised at how much your judgement is off. I was! For me it is not what I eat but how much I eat. I can survive on less.....seriously I can. I didn't think I could but I can!

So, I am going to start documenting my journey. The ups and the downs. The good and the bad. I weigh in once a month at my doctors so that will be my official weigh in to reprot my weight loss (or gain...uhg). If I create an awesome low fat/calorie recipe then I will post that also.

Just a small catch up....I went to Key West and put on some weight with all the eating and drinking I did. Within the first week I removed all that weight (most of it water weight loss). Since then my scale and I are not on talking terms. However, my clothes are my best friends. They are happy they don't have to strain against the girth of my body. I am not sure who is going to be unhappy when they fall to the ground when I am walking. lol My next weigh in at the doctors is Friday, July 16.

Just something I heard on the tv not too long ago.....don't lose weight because you tend to find things you lose.....shed weight. So I am shedding it and leaving it behind.

My goal is to lose a total of 50-60 pounds. Caloric intake is 1500 - 2000 daily. Caloric output should be 3000-3500.

Here we go......