Letting things go.

I am letting things go and it is not good. Why is it when you get in a relationship after a long dry spell you let it all go? I worked hard to make it this far and I worked hard to make myself feel better so I can meet a man. Now that I have, I am being very lazy about my eating habits. I have been walking and doing some other exercises but not like I used to. I haven't been logging in my food daily. I stopped signing in to Sparkpeople.com on a daily basis. It is time to give myself a swift kick in the ass.

Here is the crazy thing, the man I have met is in great physical shape. He works out and he takes care of himself. He doesn't eat as healthy as I would think but he works out to make up for it. So you'd think that would encourage me to be a little more diligent.

I guess my issue is he likes me the way I am. He told me he likes the way I look now and if I wanted to lose more weight he would still like me......as long as I don't lose too much. He likes a woman with a little meat on her bones. I don't have just a little meat.....I have a whole damn other person's worth of meat. *sigh*

However, I was kind of proud of myself. I didn't gain any weight this past month. I went on a 5 day cruise and I celebrated my birthday for several days. I think that is pretty darn good. My doctor was happy. I even discussed with her about going off the appetite suppressant. She was agreeable but if I couldn't do it on my own and needed a little help I could go back on the pills. We'll see.

Let's see if I can be happy in a relationship and continue to lose weight. That is my new goal. :)

Have a satisfying Saturday!

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